Oooh! Shiny! (Otherwise Known as The Crash)

In my life, there's a particular time when my focused self goes home for the day and my distracted self reemerges. This is often a disorienting, frustrating, and anxiety ridden time of day for me. It usually takes a couple of hours to catch my second wind, where I can sort of focus again... Occasionally I miss the mark though.

It doesn't always manifest itself the same way...

Some days when my meds wear off, I get anxious. I feel on edge about everything and like an utter failure of a human being. These are usually the days when I feel like I need to accomplish something NOW but can't. These are the days when you ask me what I want for dinner and I burst into tears because there are too many choices and I might make the wrong one.

Other days, I will literally start doing twenty things at once. To the point where I'm not sure WHAT exactly it is I'm doing, and I'm spending so little time on each thing I'm doing that nothing ever gets done on the task. These are the days you twenty tabs open on the desktop browser, twenty tabs open on the laptop browser, and a cold uneaten pile of spinach noodles next to you because you were too distracted to eat. (That was tonight, by the way. I'm really pissed about the noodles. Those are expensive. And hard to fine. Suck.)

Some days I do the right thing and pull myself away from the computer.

Other days I screw it up.

One of these days I'll figure out the way to handle the crash.